bringing to light many things about love

Sometimes I hide with your picture, which I know I should have thrown away, but I still try to deny that I feel nothing, when I see your face. Tears and months and years of calling most of time and I stay strong, it's okay. I know it isn't right, but sometimes is so hard, do nothing day and night. I miss what could have been, late night calls that never end, I miss how you'd hold me close, like you'd never let me go, it's okay. Your smile, your touch is in the past, I accept the fact, that you are never coming back, but I miss the love loving you, I miss everything , but is the truth - I don't miss missing you.


btw. today, at 20:30 was hour for the Earth. No light. No tv. Nothing, just candles.

devil is in the details

today, Daniel took me from school. everybody was looking at us - don't know why.
but I know, that Adam was jealous, hihi.

anyway, we(me & Daniel) went to the park Pole Mokotowskie. of course we have been talking about everything : love, school, parties, weather etc etc etc.

While we were sitting near the water tank, we made some pics.
DEVIL IS IN THE DETAILS.

and o my god.. I ate a croissant with chocolate .. delicious..
fatfatfatfatfat

i smell spring in the air

Lady Gaga vel Batman

I don't know why I bought this sunglasses. yeah, yeah, I'm addicted of shopping.

Sunday. This warm, almost summer day had put me in such a great mood.

mokotowski chill out

oj Zawistny zamula.

ahahahahahahahahahahahahah

run baby, run with me.

Pustka.
Przebłysk.
Bum.
Tłum.

Rozglądam się.
Boję się.
Uciekam.

Biegnę przed siebie.
Mijam ludzi.
Równie zagubionych jak ja.
Biegną jak ja.

Uciekamy.
Nie wiadomo dokąd.
Nie wiadomo od czego.

Biegniemy jak w maratonie.
Choć nikt nie wie gdzie jest meta.
Biegniemy jak w maratonie.
Choć to zaden wyścig.

Nie mam już siły by biec.
Kropla po kropli, choć to nie pot.
To łzy.

Upadam.
Na twarz.
Łkam..
I konam..

Bo co jeśli..to czego chcę..
..to do czego dążę..
..nie jest tym czego potrzebuję..?

fot. Maja Piotrowska

I'll never be the same..

..if we ever meet again.

I'll never be the same for some reasons :
a) I'll change my look - wish that, I'll be much prettier and thinner than now.
b) probably I wont be as nice and kind as I am now
c) ekhm... third reason .. don't know, but may be I'll be smarter - yeah yeah, 'keep dreaming'

but don't you think, that VERY IMPORTANT things won't change? never? forever?
like our friendship will survive and it won't let us down?
I hope that 2010 will be full of ONLY optimistic surprises, I don't need new problems - I've got enough.

Could sb tell me what is LOVE?
how can I know, that 'I fell in love'?
does love look like chocolate?
is it sweet or bitter?
I NEED AN ANSWER.

2010 and 1997. Same place and wather, almost the same clothes. the same person?
CZERNIAKOWSKA STREET.

2010 and 1995. Not the same clothes and place. But in the both pictures are smiles.
Adidas - of course is not mine. I borrowed from Ola (Cip)Kordel.

new photos - made by Marcin Pyć. He tried so hard to do pics almost the same like from the past.. but .. oh, you see that it was too hard.

I HOPE THAT 2010 WILL BE MY LUCKY YEAR
or
that 2010 won't suck my dick, as 2009 did it.







I want You. I miss You.

happiness at the weekend

omg. I'm so sick and tired of my life. + my sister is so annoying and I swear that one day, I'll kill her. God, if you are, don't you dare to piss off me now.

btw, I'm glad that I have friends, who always have time to support me.
friendship - now it's the most important thing for me. Now, when I know, that love sucks.
Love - whatever it was, is and will be. I'll never gonna be happy. I think.
yeah, I know that I sound like an emo.

yesterday I was with Daniel at our favourite 'w biegu cafe' on the Nowy Świat street. We talked and played scrabble. For a moment, we forgot about ours problems, but than we realised that we don't need sex , 'cause life fucks us everyday.

our joyful creativity. sth kind of 'you like it , bitch!'
sex - it's our favourite topic.

Daniel - he's my one of the best friend. I love him, but sometimes he is like one of the guys who said, that they will call - but they don't. buut I still love him, like a friend. just friend.

And today I was on the wander with Maja. We laughed, talked about boys(as always) and lay on the ground. I felt like I was 12 again. so carelessly.
the weather was almost perfect. It was sunny but so cold. as cold as my heart now.

Maja. everybody knows that she might has anyone, but only some of them knows, that she wants only one guy. like me.

hi bitches! look at me, I'm break dancing.

Michael Jackson on the wall. He's still alive.


sory for my mistakes. remember, that I'm just a human.
xoxo

EAT

Monika K - moja kochanka, która NARESZCIE ma zdj na fb.

suka z lesznowoli <3>

fot. Monika Laskowska
ładne zdj, ale moja twarz ssie pałe.